Archive for May, 2008
Friends times
Just got some pics sent to me from my bro Jeed.
Nothing special, just normal weekly discussion I have with Nat .. but never actually have anyone to take any pics. Thanks to Jeed for all the pics.
The usual place .. Vanilla Garden:
Me throwing ideas over classic chinese jasmine tea (not clapping) … haha.
Showing some references I have .. stored on my phone ..
Me & Jeed over dinner .. photo by Nat:
.. and ended with some table football. SixtySix – 10 : NatSarasas – 7. Hehe maybe next time my friend.
And .. this one is from tonight .. 3 hours ago to be exact. Friday, same table, same place .. Esco Bar, every week .. with the whole crew. Come say hi, if you are around.
If you see me .. most of the time .. I’m quiet, not because I don’t want to talk to you .. as mentioned .. I like to think more. So don’t be a buttwipe come for a chat, I dun bite.
G’nite.
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Friends and foe
Well, just a quick post aye.
Just been hearing some things that made me want to write about it.
If you see the post title, you should know what I want to talk about.
There’s a thin line between friends and foe. Most of the time when you know who is your foe it’ll already be too late to keep that person as your friend. No matter how much you’ve been royal to them and want them to be a part of your life and how much you trusted them. It’s a shame that something’s already happened to take a foe back as a friend again.
So to the point. I hate back stabbers. I never do it, no one should ever do it. Not to a friend anyway, if you never wanted to be a friend then do it .. and be a foe.
I have my crew. A group of trusted friends, not many .. to be honest .. I can count them with one hand. Friends which will always be here for me no matter what. Friends which will be happy for me when I’m successful. Friends which are full with love and zero jealousy.
As I said on couple of post back. I always want to make everyone around me happy no matter what. I will be happy with them if they get somewhere and be somebody. I work to get where I am by myself, I never back stab my way through to fame. If you are .. then I feel pity for you .. try to count how many real friends you actually have, none? Jealousy is a bad habbit.
So I suggest. If you have anything to talk to me about, come and talk to me straight up .. it’ll only prove that you are my friend and not my foe. Or if you don’t have anything productive or truthful to talk about keep that stinky mouth shut.
You don’t want to be my foe .. I can make this nice little planet a living hell for you in such a short period of time that you might actually want to kill yourself to get away from here.
Don’t start what you can’t stop.
I’m not naming anyone. I not even saying that it’s happening to me. I’ve seen too many around me in the past.
Only good and the best thing out of this whole deal is that you will be able to tell, which is which. The earlier .. the better.
I just have it on my mind .. and have that strange feeling that it might happen to me.
I just don’t want to loose any good friends.
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OhKay
Was looking back at my last post .. damn. That’s one long ass post. Sorry about that.
Again. Thank you all for your comments, sms, phone calls and face to face support. I’m okay. I love you all.
I was mainly doing a memory dump last night. Just wanted to take everything out of my head and empty it out a little .. to all of you. It was overloading.
So today I’m not going to talk much.
Just going to upload some pics I took from last couple of days.
Begin with ermm .. NWO in effect:
And .. yummy
This one for sweetie. I know you love em. Double Trouble, double GT3′s:
Also I got this pic from StreetHunter, me and P’Tob .. at Create8 Party in DayBeds Magazine.
I also bought Usher new album .. “Here I Stand” from iTunes Store .. yes you heard right .. I BOUGHT!! I support good music 100% and I love this one a lot. I recommend it to all of you with R&B taste like me. Do what you do to get it, I can’t stop you anyway.
It’s been playing in my room, my car, my iphone and my bathroom for the last 2 days non stop. My couple of favs? Here I stand, Moving Mountain, His Mistakes .. most of them really.
See I kept it short.
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Questions after Questions
My brain and the other part of my internal organ are exploding.
Far too much is going in there. Not good .. if It’s going to stay like this. I need something to grab it and tell me that everything will be ok and slow the pace of everything down.
Is it possible to get a tumor from thinking too much?? I hope not .. or else I will get one in couple of days.
Instead, just because I can’t stop myself from thinking .. I will make all of you think too. I’m going to invite you into my brain right now .. Really Really deep inside my brain.
Lets begin with ..
I know most of you must have experienced something call “a change over night”?, I made that up by the way .. but what I’m trying to say is .. hmm .. very simple .. you are feeling one thing before you sleep, then totally opposite when you wake up? (for some reason). Your world as you know it .. flip upside down, inside out?
For example, when my dad passed away. From a great day I didn’t know that when I wake up tomorrow .. it’ll be the worst day of my life. Something similar happened to me a lot this year, neither by myself or others.
Just wondering.
How about ..
When you keep thinking about something, or something happened that make you think .. and feel like throwing up? It’s not physical but .. mentally .. confused? Well, you feel like throwing up .. but you know really that you will not throw up because you didn’t eat anything all day, but you feel like you want to. Errrrrr .. well, ermm .. anyway.
Just wondering.
Also …
When you feel like you really need to do something, to keep yourself busy .. but you feel like you don’t have any energy to do anything .. though you’ve just got up?, although deep inside, you god damn well know that you don’t want to do anything at all.
Just wondering.
I’m pretty sure it’s not just me. Not now .. just over time.
It’s kinda like research for me .. I want to know if everyone have the same feeling.
I mean .. when you are happy. What do you see?
.. when you are sad .. where do you wanna go. Is it same place as me? How much will it take to make you cry.
If so .. why people have happy tears? Then what do you see then?
So lets say .. if you know me, I love seeing happy people .. I like making everyone around me happy, even if I’m sad while making everyone happy. But I still do it anyway .. how about you. Will you be happy for me? If you are the person that I’m trying to bring happiness to? Will you let me do it for you? Or will you let me be sad? Confusing huh??
And .. if you are heart broken. What kinda of person are you to be able to get over it so easily, or if you are a heart breaker .. do you have any feelings? Then if it’s easy for you to break someone down .. what will it take to break you down? Will it hurt you if one day you got a taste of your own medicine? Or never? If so what is the word “love” means to you?
Damn I’m talking to much at 5 in the morning. Maybe I’m trying to do one of the above. Keeping myself busy?
Or maybe you are trying to keep yourself busy by reading every I’ve just wrote?
I don’t need anyone to tell me to stop thinking, because I can’t stop. That’s me.
If you think 2 steps ahead. I think 10 steps ahead with possibility of each one going wrong and I will think 10 more ways for each and every one of them on top of the original 10.
If you think that’s bad. Then .. that’s you, because you only think 2 steps and maybe you are living alone in your own little world on a tiny island. I think it’s good because that’s how I am where I am today.
That’s why most of the time when you see me, I don’t really like talk much. I think.
Maybe at that moment in time when you are thinking about why I’m not talking to you, I could be thinking about you thinking about me not talking to you and thinking about 10 ways to make you love me and the other 10 to make you hate me and 20 more possibilities to react to your reaction to each one of them.
And right now you must be thinking that I am talking to much and full of crap .. but also thinking that most of the stuff I wrote is pretty neat at the same time.
All my feelings are REAL. Always.
Love me and I will Love you back 10 times more.
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FeastOfLove
So I bought some DVD’s couple of days ago. Well, 10 of them infact. Some old .. some new.
I watched one of them this morning.
I like Morgan Freeman .. so I go with this one first:
Feast Of Love:
A beautiful movie. Touched me in a couple of different ways, some more than the other .. but a lot of it is real.
The best quotes from this movie for me got to be when ..
Bradley Thomas (Greg Kinnear) asked his girlfriend: What’s making you smile like that?
Margaret Vekashi (Erika Marozsán) answered: Looking out the window, an unusual man, an innocent man, an open-hearted man. Someone who has given tremendous love, but never had it returned, not in the way he deserves.
Well, that’s all I’m going to write about it. Because I don’t want to spoil it for some of you. If you have time .. watch it. There’s a lesson for everyone in there some where.
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g.ideas
Well .. how often do you look at an advertising around you twice? Or really think about what it’s trying to tell you, or communicate with you?
For me? In Thailand? Not very often an advertising really tickle my brain.
But yesterday .. I saw one, by BMW (Yes zurrrr).
Very clever. You’ll have to be on a heli to look down at one.
That’s BMW for you …
Very 66.
Today .. I’ve just finished my last, yes last … I will not do another (themes) for anyone else. This shall be my last one. I’ve been spending too much of my spare time doing all the themes for everyone .. so many that I don’t know what spare time really means .. anymore.
So .. that’s that. No more themes for you .. don’t call me. Haha!!
Right … back to work I go.
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